I'm pretty much stoked about Halloween. Can't wait til the party! Woot for scary pumkins and whatnot!!! :D

OMG, I just got back from Speedway, where I had to wait 20 minutes for the dumbasses to tell me that their credit card system was down and they just couldn't help me. My question is, why is it that you guys couldn't have made an announcement 2 minutes into the issue so that I could've taken care of my business somewhere else? How is it that it's so hard to find  job, when all of these retards have them?

Hasn't anyone ever heard of "employee termination"? If you have a dumbass on your staff, fire him/her. There are thousands of smarter people that would like that job! Bah!!!

P.S. - slept in for the first time in 3 weeks!!! It was pretty much amazing!!!

So this pretty much rocks. I get direct deposit and I don't really check on my paychecks too often. It hits my account and that's really all I care about. I was especially interested in this paycheck, though, because I wanted to know whether or not my pay at my new job was built off of the last time I worked there or if I started over. (It's a pretty big difference, like $1.50 an hour difference)

So I finally get my paystub (which got mailed to my MOM even though I specifically changed my address... shocker, she opened it) and I look inside and I was making the higher pay of the 2 I was expecting! I was SO excited... until I realized that I only got $20 more than I was expecting w/ the lessor rate! I have an excell program that's basically set up so that all I have to do is type in what I'm making and how many hours I work and it tells me about how much my checks are going to be. It's pretty cool. So my check was about 20 bucks more with the higher payrate than I expected with the lower payrate. 

Now if you haven't done the math, yet, look at this: I worked 40 hours at 1.50 more than I was planning on making per hour. I should be getting 60 bucks more a week before taxes and about 48 after (if they take out 20% for taxes). NOPE! They're taking almost 30% of my paycheck out for taxes, including Medicare! Which I won't even fucking get to use!!! And I'm not going to lie, I'm making bank right now. It's really great, but it's a temp job, meaning it's done at the end of December. So every penny I can set aside is going toward school and surviving until I can find another job. And they're taking about 120 dollars away from me every fucking week!

So thank you US Government, thank you so much for RAPING ME IN THE ASSHOLE AND STEALING MY MONEY! I know we get part of it back at tax season, but you can be damned sure that I won't get it all. I'm just tired of my "big breaks" always coming with a little catch.

So I haven't posted in 6 weeks. Don't really have any thing to say. Just wanted to test out my cool new mood theme. Woot! :)

So I finally caved and restarted a LJ. Shocker... I know. I'm actually finding myself with a lot more to think about than I used to and it's been taking a toll on me, so maybe this will end up being a good thing. Who knows, right?

So, we'll call this the beginning and see how it goes. I'm not going to go into the specifics of what's going on, because I only have so much time before Rachael wakes up from her "not-nap". The problems in my life have actually been taking a physical toll. I find myself feeling sick to my stomach or without an appetite even though I haven't had food in 24 hours.

Things with my mom are harder than they have ever been. She and I always used to fight, but now that I'm finally willing to stand up and break the hold she wants to maintain over me, it seems to be getting worse. Every time I try to assert any independence (a 21 year old, mind you) she either attacks me until I get so hurt that I find myself thinking she's right, or she just shuts me out until she can guilt me into it. But, let's face it, this is the immortal struggle between child and parent, and who am I to dispute the laws of human nature...?

Money has also been a major issue for me, lately. I'm currently stuck at a dead end job at the John Ball Zoo, because I can't find anything else. The suckiest part being that I can barely afford to live, let alone give Rachael everything I want to. I've had to curb my whims and spontaneity, not because I don't feel like doing it, but because I simply can't afford to. i can barely afford to drive to and from work any more.

And then there's the roommate situation. I'm just going to leave that one alone for now, because I actually just received a very positive sign from the antagonist in that story. Here's hopin'... :)

Huh, it actually feels really nice to be able to write all of this down and get it off of my chest. Maybe this wasn't such a bad idea... :)